Time to have extroverts around.

Its time now to get extroverts around rather than having introverts. This is coming from the experince. I used to have a friend at mumbai who is a gem of a person. He was hardworking, outspoken, easy going. Probably if i have to chose one guy who can walk straight into my life he was it. I could speak anything with him. He knew about my marriage, my love for vishnu.  He knows each and everything about vishnu. He saw tears on my cheeks, smile on my face, laugh on my face. Enjoyed fruits with him, tea with him, lunch and dinner with him.

He had a brother who was an high introvert. My friend used to ask him to come and sit in the office. He said be in office, i will go on field to find more clients. But his brother was reluctant. His brother just used to sit at home rather than coming into his office. Not even speak to his brother who is trying to do good to him.

Slowly it moved my friend to start beliving on to outsiders who took advantage of the situations.

When i look to myself , i too have a brother. If i speak 100 sentences he has a one word for it. Worked on him from almost  6 months to get a minimal change. But its not working. If i speak anything personal, he cannot give an ear to listen. He must be having his set of professional problems. But it has become tough for me to sit with expectation that he will speak or communicate with me. I should start my search to findout people who can talk freely with me on any topic.

Time to move out and start to get people who will like me and communicate with me as what i am.

May lord vishnu bless before me in this.

Time to think about myself.

Last week started to think its time to think about myself. 10 years of trying to modify the thought process of family has yielded absolutely no results. Probably it is first time in life I has scored a big zero. I have tried myself to explain each and every thing and why it is needed in the changed circumstances. But everything proved to be invain. The madness that god will do everything has crossed its limits. I think its time now that i should seperate out from this thought process to keep myself atleast saved. People may point fingers but the person who knows truth should act.

The capability to take any decision by my father has gone down to negative. In such situations after a long thought process it is time that I move out.

May lord vishnu once again protect me.

Dilip- story started.

It feels good when u groom a person and that person start moved on success. It was around 4 months back when i started grooming this boy into stock market. people are afraid of it. He was a young guy. I wanted to groom him as he was going for a marriage at young age. Goal is simple. In 5 years this guy should stand on his feet strongly irrespective of job swings. When started he was more enthusiastic and taking decision on stocks not doing the home work. Slowly got on to him and started guiding him. Today happy to see that he made a 20% turn around in stocks in one challenging quarter. But there is a long way to go. His patience levels still need to get up atleast by 25 to 35 percent which will eventually happen in course of time. The next logical stage is excel 1 to which i will graduate this boy in next 3 months. By my birthday i want to standup again and say to the word here is one more person whom i am proud of grooming. As of now things look very bright. Let us hope lord vishnu will make it true.

Hastha and valli

Last week before leaving to Banglore, got a call on mobile. As usual picked the call. The otherside voice hello kumar bagunnava. oh god it was valli. Valli from IBM. The same person whom i nurtured a decade back. A devoted supporter of Kumar. Whether I am on right side or wrong side one thing was clear that valli will just support kumar. I enquired about her husband kishore and then came kumar i am sending u photos just open and see. Hastha gadu. Little fellow. I still remember when he was born i got a call, kumar i had a son. Just dont think too much and tell me a name in 45 seconds. I said vishnu hastha. and today seeing a 2.5 year old hastha riding small cycle was so happy. Kumar, u dont worry about future. Even if something happens to me hastha will take care of you, i cannot forget how u helped ani. I said valli helping is a habit, but dont make hastha , kumar if hastha is with u i am sure he will come up in life as a person whom people love. I was moved. But frankly how can i not help hastha. Even i am hastha star born fellow only. Kumar i want to eat sambhar rice with you. i said sure. May be next visit to pune, i will get her sambhar rice. It is really nice to have a friend like valli.

Proud of Oracle engineers

Last week was a testing time.  The power grid in north, north-east and east has failed making the national servers to keep up and running a challenge. the back up needed for these servers. The man power to help them keep running. the best practises to be used in such stage etc were managed very well by oracle engineers to keep the enterprise servers up and running and kudos to the hardword that they have done.

Happy Days of college remembered again

Today i was very happy. After a very long time i had a great chat with my PG friend Uma . The roll no 5 person. I was roll no 3. We recollected lot of things and recollecting those things has given the soul . Remembered all our friends alkishore, sai, kk, neriker, rinitha, haseeba, archana, phani. Remembered the lectureres who taught us. Remembered the samosas of canteen what not. Dont know how two hours of chat went on. Today i am sure i can sleep peacefully as soul is satisfied.

16 more fees to pay

Fees is an integral part of education. Today paid the fees of vishnu. 16 more times I need to visit the school in terms of paying the fees. Slowly it is now into 16 thank god and give me the strength to complete this 16.

Dangerous travels

Friends now a days traveling has become very dangerous. The latest episode of shirdi bus killing 30 passengers is one more example to add to it. We imported the best of Volvo buses. But our roads are not built for it. Look at the fate of roads. The road which goes from Hyderabad to Mumbai i.e. NH9 is just a two lane. one for vehicles going and one for vehicles coming. This is the development India has been able to achieve after so many years. We call such road as National highway. Whenever i have to travel on my personal to Mumbai I am worried. Because it is carrying death on your back. A split second of error in judgement can just throw away the Volvo bus out of road. The road pune solapur road expansion work is going from donkey years and I am sure my grandson will also not see that road in action.

The only thing i pray when i am travelling is that god keep me alive as I need to pay to my son for his education. After his education i am ready to come with you god.

May Lord vishnu not give pre-mature deaths to anybody.

Vacations over

The school vacations are over. As usual one more year goes with out a single day with Vishnu. This year i have not even requested his mother because every year its the same vengeance. The boy can be sent to anybody other than his father. There is no interest to go to judiciary also as it is highly corrupt. It can just get away saying anything. In india father is the most abused word. Anyway I will keep doing my duties. Come august i need to pay the second term fees. Started putting money aside for that. December quarter payment will complete vishnu's 5th class. Will vishnu understand my efforts for him, the answer seems to be growing into a bigger no day by day. Any way let me do my part.

May lord vishnu bless everybody.

Minister goes to jail.

The corrupt minister ultimately goes to jail. But what surprised me is the way political community saying he is innocent even before he is produced before the magistrate.

Ministers defence: i have not signed the government orders in my peshi. i signed it at Chief ministers office on the insistence of chief minister.

Common man question: how does it matter whether you have signed it in your office or toilet. A signed copy is always treated as a Government order irrespective of where it is signed.

Minister Defence:  I was loyal to chief minister and party high command.

common man question:  you took the oath as saying you will be loyal to country and constitution. Why have u not taken this oath at the same time.

Minister defence: It is a cabinet decision.

common man question:  Then where are the other signature or minutes of meeting approved by cabinet.

Mr. Ramana , you are corrupt. Not one out but among many. Its time that your friends can also see you in the jail.

May lord vishnu do justice to common man.

Importance of tables

Yesterday was teaching karthik the continuation of HCF and LCM.  The basic difference in teaching from old days to new days is that in old days tables were we are taught tables upto 20. 2X20, 3X20 etc. But now tables are taught only upto 10 levels 2X10 and 3X10 etc. For a guy who knows upto 20 levels HCF and LCM becomes easy. So purchased a new tables book and gave it to karthik to increase himself upto 20 levels from existing 10 levels. Good to see karthik making himself up in a day. This has reduced burden on me. 2 other kids have also started coming into home sitting and reading. Gave them english imposition to write a topic from english news paper everyday in the book. Kids have started loving it and I am getting free kisses once i am back from office.

Let the enjoyment go on.

HCF AND LCM

The vacations to kids have started. Karthik(sisters son) has come home. He has come with his mathematics text book asking mama help me teach maths. I was motivated with his interest for maths. Somewhere in the heart i felt had vishnu been there i would have taught maths to vishnu too. But no regrets now because even begging few hours had also kept them to ignore to fulfill vengeance. Who can define and create a new fate. Akshay 2nd son of sister will be coming tomorrow. that fellow also wants to learn maths. Happy to see kids being with me and learning from me

The loan management will start from first. Let us see how much i can succeed in this. But one good thing is efforts are sincere. Life teaches lot of lessons. Let us see how many lessons are more left out. 

Paa actress Taruni Sachdev dies in Nepal crash

A very bad news. God is bad is what i have started feeling. He picks up the best roses on the earth. When i saw this movie paa I had fallen in love with this girl. I started thinking i should have a girl like her whom i can drop school every day. But to hear this news its really sad. Hard to digest. I know how tough it is going to be for her father who lost both wife and kid in the accident. Some lifes are like that. I have a son which of no use. 

Time to start thinking of closing loans

Last week had a good meeting with Preeti. She was very clear in bringing many points upfront. The discussion on the loans has also come as both of us home loans. With sunset coming up it was clear that we need to close up the loans asap. A strategy was formulated. We had kept next 5 years as time to close of the loans. We know its not easy by any means but still if we set up a target then only we will chase the target. Need to meet my friend sachin as he has always been good to me in suggesting financial decisions. Let us see how it start going. Come June 2012 this target will hit the green button. As a father at least I should be able to transfer a loan free house to my son in case of my exit from this earth. I should push myself to be on this place with a normal health till he crosses atleast his +2. This is almost 7 years (84) months away. Let us see what lord vishnu has in his plans. I am happy atleast after talking to preeti there is a new target which will help my son.

Today went to the movie, premalo padithe after seeing the trailer. A very nice movie. The hero character is a student of international school. His mother is rich and has no father. He demands money whenever he wants and is in bad company or to be the leader for it. When i see vishnu i see the same. He is the most noise making guy in the class. Every time i visit school there is a complaint. Once the complaint from class teacher saying Sir he is telling to all students we will get this teacher away. I had no answer. He does not have the fear of father who may punish him. He is pampered to be damaged at home. Marks are no good either. No body to ask why so low scoring. In the movie , the hero traps a girl makes bad mms of her using his cunning brain. When the girl comes to know of it she removes the data card from mobile and damages the the card. The hero in fit of anger tries to throw acid on the face of the girl, but ends throwing the acid on the face of the house maid. As usual the rich and influential escapes the punishment. Here also Vishnu has a grand father from police department. Tomorrow even if he becomes bad he still will get that protection. Rather than bringing up a child in the better fashion i am able to see how vengeance on me is used to spoil the kid. I dont have those feelings also left out any more. I am a money machine. I need to provide the maintenance and school/college fees till he becomes 18. I will do that. After that its his life.Its time I also need to move on in life. I have failed twice in life with the concept of trying to like/love people. May be i need somebody who can take care of me rather than me trying to take care of others. Let us see where life takes its turn. May lord vishnu bless us all.

Time changes lot of things but not basic character

Today saw the end of one of the my dad's seniors when dad was working. Through out the career he was a problem creator for dad. Post his retirement also he used to create problems for dad. There is a saying that time changes many things. Yes time changes many things but not the basic character of the person. If we look into people who are vengensic/sadistic they cannot change their nature. That is what is called the character. Similarly people who can cheat/ditch on others they can cheat. How many chit companies we are not seeing which cheat people and run away. How many we have not come across in our lives who ditch people. Let it be vibhishan in ramayan, vikarna in mahabharat, mama of tippu sultan. For a few peanuts we see people ditch their organizations and wifes ditching husbands once they find others with green patches. Similarly people who believe and love in others keep doing the same. So friends if somebody approaches that he/she has changed first see whether it is the basic character and then take a decision. The examples from pedda bala sikha, ramayan and mahabharat can be real guiding principles.

May lord vishnu bless us all with happy life.

My little doll - Revathi.

I was at home. A call has come. I had lifted the phone. The otherside voice asked can i speak to seetha pinni. I asked who is this. The other person identified and said this is lakshmi aunty of podili. Mind went for a joy. For it is at the same place i used to practice type writing in ravi uncle's institute. Ravi mama never used to charge me. Ravi mama has four kids and Revathi was the last one. The little rascal was hardly 3-4 years old. Come morning revathi gets up and comes to my grand parents house which is opposite to the road. Bindu her sister used to come and pick her up and go back to home, 5-10 min revathi is back. I cannot forget that little face even now. After talking to lakshmi aunty, there came a voice. Bava ela unnavu. It is the my little revathi. Bava now i am studying engineering second year and bindu has become a lecturer in engineering college. I just could not believe. Waiting for this saturday when i will see my revathi, the little rascal who is grown up into a 20 year old female. Frankly for my eyes revathi is still 3-4 years old kid. Still coming and sitting on the cot. How good were those days and how good are those people. God put me back in those people who have true meaning of love and affection.

Revati, Just waiting for saturday. After long time the wait is giving a pleasure.
 

One year of divorce.

One year went in with official divorce, though the seperation has been more than decade. This one year went peaceful. Regarding kid the case is still on at supreme court. Thought during one year there will be atleast some change, but vengence has not gone down even by a point. Wanted to have the kid telugu as second language and hindi as third language. Need to send legal notice to school as school is behaving erratic. If not pull school to court and make it pay money for cheating and mental torture. I wish that happen so that other schools will fall in line in such cases. Let us see how the next year will go.

yashodha hospital , room no 502

It was a re-birth at yashodha. Joined on 5th april and stayed for 12 days. All this time there was only one thing running in mind, I should get well not for myself but for vishnu. I need to keep myself up and kicking till 2020 when vishnu becomes a major so that he can handle things for himself. I know the target that I had kept for myself with vishnu is 2027 which is not visible from here, but small steps will usually take us upto there. It is better not to loose focus right here, rather work on small steps and reach there. The concept of dads salary which was introduced in the past writings need to be made true. I am still not clear on the second income path till this second. I need to start giving a thought on that as it is right time. 1.5 litres of anti biotics pumped into body has made me weak. Getting back to normal has already taken 14 days. Still very weak. May be by the end of next week i should return to normal. I thank lord vishnu for giving me a chance to work for my son. 

Dad's role

Yesterday I was at the school road, as usual standing on the other side of the road to get a glimpse of vishnu. Time ticked as usual and I was vishnu long way coming towards his school bus. As he neared the bus I could see tears in his eyes. I signed what happened, vishnu came and said one of his friend bet him for no reason and his fingers are paining. I asked kids there was there any fault of vishnu. As usual the kids said no fault. I moved to bus in which the other kid was sitting and asked why did he beat. He was one of vishnu's friends at some point of time. It is child behaviour that vishnu has moved to other section and few people cannot digest it. There is nothing wrong in it. I asked the boy not to do that and vishnu was happy. After that I walked towards the bus in which vishnu has to go. He was very happy. After a long time a warm hug from my son. Daddy if he hits me next time , you hit him to the bus. He was telling his friends, maa daddy ki kopam vasthena evarinayina uthikesthadu ( If my father gets angry, he can beat any body). That is the confidence the word dad gets to the kids. I just took his hand into my hand and slowly massaged it saying i am putting a mantram.  Daddy , naaku noppi thaggi poyindhi i will go home. I waved the hand, but heart was feeling why a vengence of usha was damaging the love a kid is entitled for. Few people like usha never change and expecting change from them is also useless. May lord give the son happiness always. When i said i payed ur fees, the happiness in eyes was to be seen.

May lord vishnu bless one and all.

My trip to village

After almost 25 years I visited Ongole and 30 years I visited Nellore. It was a different feeling altogether. I understood how world goes. People there are happy. Money alone doesn't get happiness. I had Upma Pesarattu after a long time. WOW what a taste. It was simply superb. Allam chatni , felt heavenly. Then in nellore went to leela talkies ( i dont know how a kid came out of me). It was in the same nellore, 30 years back, i saw a movie by name sitara with my mama. Had goli soda and felt happy. All in all it was so good to be attached back to roots after so long time. Went to podili too on the way. Went to narayana reddy uncles house. Jyoti immediately recognized and said kumar , ennalayindhi ninnu chusi. I know jyoti when she was the school student. Infact she is my first girl friend in true sense. Immediately she brought butter milk, kumar neeku majjiga ante inka isthame kadha. How much they remember us and our favourite things. Then jyoti's sister pushpa came running kumar annaya bagunnava. She called rama immediately on phone. Rama was on phone, kumar annaya nuvvu cheppakunda vachavu emiti( u came without informing me). Kumar anna i will take u to srisailam as it is close to my place. 2 hours went just like that. Met Pardhu, the guy who used to lift me when i was young and calls mom sister. He is next door to us. When pardha touched hand, it was heaven. Kumar baggunava. Kumar naaku anni thelusu( kumar i know everything). One more butter milk and sugandha milk oh my god i would die in their love. What i have done to them. Nothing. But their love is so pure.  When moving from that place to nellore on continuation of travel, tears just rolled around the cheeks. Where is this love and where was the love which is only proportional to money u can put in banks. This is love, this is what i want. May god keep this love on me forever..

Vishnu - vision 2027

Yesterday i was just relaxing in the easy chair. Suddenly mind went back to mumbai last week when i had a discussion with sachin. Sachin has become such an integral part of thought process that we sync very fast. 2018 is when vishnu will complete his tenth class. 2020 is when plus two will get over. 2024 is when engineering gets over and 2027 is when MBA gets over so that he can think of flying on his wings. 2027 seems to be very far for me. Will i be able to support vishnu till then. I very well know employment after 2015 is highly tough. Carrying this body which is in bad shape till then itself seems to be impossible. I need to think something different to make sure 2027 will not be tough for vishnu. Finally the dad's salary concept has taken a shape with reliance money as the medium. A very special thanks should go to sachin, preeti, telugu chinna and others for helping me concrete on this. Let us see how things go from here.

How does an MBA help a person.

Yesterday i was travelling by a bus back to Hyderabad. A girl was sitting in the next seat. Its a 13 hour journey. I was reading the oracle document. She started saying , do you work on oracle platform. I said i work for oracle itself. Then it was a chit chat for sometime. She cracked few jokes on software people and I laughed fully. Then i asked her what have u done. She said MBA. I asked how can ur MBA help you as a person. I knew the answer, but i wanted to know from her. It helps your brain to think towards ROI( return of intrest) when u start any new venture whether professional or personal. It helps you to calculate TCO ( total cost of owner ship). It talks about break-even when u are entering into new projects.It gives you an insight into tackling things etc. She spoke for almost 2 hours. I felt convinced. At some point of time, for a student I sponsored MBA.  As a sponsor, i tried most of the things my level best to keep updated. I asked once have u not fared well in this exam, thats it it was volcanic burn out . its my studies i will do what i want ( sponsor has no word to tell). I was thinking how different this girl was from that. I asked her to send resume , because those type of people will come up in life when helped. 

Happy Birthday - Heart bleeding.

It was vishnu's 11 birthday. 10 complete and into 11.  I got up early in the morning. Had a head bath. Dressed up myself properly . Was waiting desperately for the watch to move. Started and went to office. Its exam time for vishnu. I was sure after completing exams he will come to bus which he has to board and i can wave from the other side of the road and carried a pluckard showing happy birthday. Many many returns of the day. Then felt i should go and give him shake hand to say happy birthday. Called the school, I was told that the kid had left at 10.30AM itself as his mother has come and taken away. 11.30am my father reached school. He saw the vengensic lady there sitting with crossed legs. He asked the reception about vishnu. She told that he has already left. Dad started moving towards the house , heard some voices from the underground lunch hall. Went there saw vishnu was there. Gave away the new shirt. Infact the vengensic lady has come to get me arrested showing that I was meeting vishnu. She wanted kumar to be paraded with handcuffs before vishnu on his birthday, but god is there he has saved kumar. Heart bleeded. I know who are all behind this. I helped a punjabi, where people used to litterally close their doors on seeing the face. I helped to get all my personal details to be given away to other side. I have never said a single word, because the mistake was mine to help. Let me see what supreme court has to say.

May lord vishnu, bless kids with joy.

father salary - new concept for vishnu

Hello Friends,

Few days back i was reading through one of the german life style. There i found that one sect of german's actually pay to their son's for one year to enable their kids settle into jobs nicely. I found the concept nice. Vishnu will be turning 11 today. I thought why not i start a thing like this to vishnu. I had word with my friend Sachin and preeti.  They too were excited about the same. After going through lot of investmental strategies i had come up with Sachin a good strategy. Once vishnu starts into 21 i will start paying him the salary for the first 4 years and then a lumpsum amount so that he can buy a place to live wherever he decides to live. That way i will be completing my responsibility and gives him a choice to live in the way he wants to live.

Living peaceful is important and i respect live life.

A very positive discussion with Mumbai friends

It was a very positive discussion i had with my mumbai friends after a long time. It has cleared the way of investments for the time to come. My friend from ICICI has given some great inputs which are of great help to me. I am really lucky to have a friend like her who takes so much of time to guide at very crucial stages in life. Whenever I am injured, i got the attention, when i left Microsoft i got the encouragement. My other friend from reliance has encouraged me at all times. He was with me in good, bad  phases. We had a great discussion regarding automobile business, electricity business. Feeling lively again and kicking back with life.

Final fight for vishnu

The final fight for vishnu has moved to supreme court. I know there are very few fathers who would fight for a visiting right to this level. I feel proud on myself for fighting for him inspite of knowing i am fighting against an established thing like police who have nexus with judiciary. I know how tough it is but i am fighting not to win the love of vishnu, but to see he gets his rights. He is also also 10+ and will be entering into 11 come march 16th. I know very much it will not be settled overnight, but yes the process has kicked in that is more important. May be an year later atleast i will know whether the fight ends with justice or I have lost fighting an establishment. Let me see where lord vishnu takes the route.

Eye contact.

Hello friends,

Well after coming to hyderabad, i had great hope on judicial that it would allow vishnu to move out with me atleast once on a biweekend. But judiciary is sold out. I used to see vishnu in school during lunch when i used to come to mumbai. Vengence people wanted that to be out and judiciary danced. But judiciary cannot stop people from having eye contact across the street. I stand on street and vishnu on the other side of the street we see each other and then depart. I now know how much eyes can share just with contact. Life has taught too many things for me. Nobody should have so much syllabus.

May lord vishnu bless fathers and sons better deal than this.

First day at Hyderabad.

The first day at hyderabad was exciting. The drive by car brought more happiness. I used to drive fiat during my first stint. It was the same road , but there is no railway gate which used to fall when i was going to office during the first time. Now with the time we have a flyover which goes over the railway lines. The road has changed so much. There used to be a mechanic on the way who used to repair car when needed, but now i could not even see that shop. There used to be a temple on the right side corner, even that i missed due to traffic not sure whether it is there or not. Shilparamam has changed a lot. I still remember walking into the hitech city to four-soft office asking for a favour to get somebody a job as management trainee. During that days it used to be the big building in that area. Now there are lot of new buildings. There used to be atha mess where i used to have food. I tried to find that, but could not find as new shops have come in that place.

The ultimate purpose of coming to hyderabad itself is defeated by the judge Ramana. I wish that his son also face the same music as I am facing and this is a bramhin curse to a corrupt judge.

May lord vishnu bless us all.