My trip to village

After almost 25 years I visited Ongole and 30 years I visited Nellore. It was a different feeling altogether. I understood how world goes. People there are happy. Money alone doesn't get happiness. I had Upma Pesarattu after a long time. WOW what a taste. It was simply superb. Allam chatni , felt heavenly. Then in nellore went to leela talkies ( i dont know how a kid came out of me). It was in the same nellore, 30 years back, i saw a movie by name sitara with my mama. Had goli soda and felt happy. All in all it was so good to be attached back to roots after so long time. Went to podili too on the way. Went to narayana reddy uncles house. Jyoti immediately recognized and said kumar , ennalayindhi ninnu chusi. I know jyoti when she was the school student. Infact she is my first girl friend in true sense. Immediately she brought butter milk, kumar neeku majjiga ante inka isthame kadha. How much they remember us and our favourite things. Then jyoti's sister pushpa came running kumar annaya bagunnava. She called rama immediately on phone. Rama was on phone, kumar annaya nuvvu cheppakunda vachavu emiti( u came without informing me). Kumar anna i will take u to srisailam as it is close to my place. 2 hours went just like that. Met Pardhu, the guy who used to lift me when i was young and calls mom sister. He is next door to us. When pardha touched hand, it was heaven. Kumar baggunava. Kumar naaku anni thelusu( kumar i know everything). One more butter milk and sugandha milk oh my god i would die in their love. What i have done to them. Nothing. But their love is so pure.  When moving from that place to nellore on continuation of travel, tears just rolled around the cheeks. Where is this love and where was the love which is only proportional to money u can put in banks. This is love, this is what i want. May god keep this love on me forever..

Vishnu - vision 2027

Yesterday i was just relaxing in the easy chair. Suddenly mind went back to mumbai last week when i had a discussion with sachin. Sachin has become such an integral part of thought process that we sync very fast. 2018 is when vishnu will complete his tenth class. 2020 is when plus two will get over. 2024 is when engineering gets over and 2027 is when MBA gets over so that he can think of flying on his wings. 2027 seems to be very far for me. Will i be able to support vishnu till then. I very well know employment after 2015 is highly tough. Carrying this body which is in bad shape till then itself seems to be impossible. I need to think something different to make sure 2027 will not be tough for vishnu. Finally the dad's salary concept has taken a shape with reliance money as the medium. A very special thanks should go to sachin, preeti, telugu chinna and others for helping me concrete on this. Let us see how things go from here.

How does an MBA help a person.

Yesterday i was travelling by a bus back to Hyderabad. A girl was sitting in the next seat. Its a 13 hour journey. I was reading the oracle document. She started saying , do you work on oracle platform. I said i work for oracle itself. Then it was a chit chat for sometime. She cracked few jokes on software people and I laughed fully. Then i asked her what have u done. She said MBA. I asked how can ur MBA help you as a person. I knew the answer, but i wanted to know from her. It helps your brain to think towards ROI( return of intrest) when u start any new venture whether professional or personal. It helps you to calculate TCO ( total cost of owner ship). It talks about break-even when u are entering into new projects.It gives you an insight into tackling things etc. She spoke for almost 2 hours. I felt convinced. At some point of time, for a student I sponsored MBA.  As a sponsor, i tried most of the things my level best to keep updated. I asked once have u not fared well in this exam, thats it it was volcanic burn out . its my studies i will do what i want ( sponsor has no word to tell). I was thinking how different this girl was from that. I asked her to send resume , because those type of people will come up in life when helped. 

Happy Birthday - Heart bleeding.

It was vishnu's 11 birthday. 10 complete and into 11.  I got up early in the morning. Had a head bath. Dressed up myself properly . Was waiting desperately for the watch to move. Started and went to office. Its exam time for vishnu. I was sure after completing exams he will come to bus which he has to board and i can wave from the other side of the road and carried a pluckard showing happy birthday. Many many returns of the day. Then felt i should go and give him shake hand to say happy birthday. Called the school, I was told that the kid had left at 10.30AM itself as his mother has come and taken away. 11.30am my father reached school. He saw the vengensic lady there sitting with crossed legs. He asked the reception about vishnu. She told that he has already left. Dad started moving towards the house , heard some voices from the underground lunch hall. Went there saw vishnu was there. Gave away the new shirt. Infact the vengensic lady has come to get me arrested showing that I was meeting vishnu. She wanted kumar to be paraded with handcuffs before vishnu on his birthday, but god is there he has saved kumar. Heart bleeded. I know who are all behind this. I helped a punjabi, where people used to litterally close their doors on seeing the face. I helped to get all my personal details to be given away to other side. I have never said a single word, because the mistake was mine to help. Let me see what supreme court has to say.

May lord vishnu, bless kids with joy.

father salary - new concept for vishnu

Hello Friends,

Few days back i was reading through one of the german life style. There i found that one sect of german's actually pay to their son's for one year to enable their kids settle into jobs nicely. I found the concept nice. Vishnu will be turning 11 today. I thought why not i start a thing like this to vishnu. I had word with my friend Sachin and preeti.  They too were excited about the same. After going through lot of investmental strategies i had come up with Sachin a good strategy. Once vishnu starts into 21 i will start paying him the salary for the first 4 years and then a lumpsum amount so that he can buy a place to live wherever he decides to live. That way i will be completing my responsibility and gives him a choice to live in the way he wants to live.

Living peaceful is important and i respect live life.

A very positive discussion with Mumbai friends

It was a very positive discussion i had with my mumbai friends after a long time. It has cleared the way of investments for the time to come. My friend from ICICI has given some great inputs which are of great help to me. I am really lucky to have a friend like her who takes so much of time to guide at very crucial stages in life. Whenever I am injured, i got the attention, when i left Microsoft i got the encouragement. My other friend from reliance has encouraged me at all times. He was with me in good, bad  phases. We had a great discussion regarding automobile business, electricity business. Feeling lively again and kicking back with life.

Final fight for vishnu

The final fight for vishnu has moved to supreme court. I know there are very few fathers who would fight for a visiting right to this level. I feel proud on myself for fighting for him inspite of knowing i am fighting against an established thing like police who have nexus with judiciary. I know how tough it is but i am fighting not to win the love of vishnu, but to see he gets his rights. He is also also 10+ and will be entering into 11 come march 16th. I know very much it will not be settled overnight, but yes the process has kicked in that is more important. May be an year later atleast i will know whether the fight ends with justice or I have lost fighting an establishment. Let me see where lord vishnu takes the route.

Eye contact.

Hello friends,

Well after coming to hyderabad, i had great hope on judicial that it would allow vishnu to move out with me atleast once on a biweekend. But judiciary is sold out. I used to see vishnu in school during lunch when i used to come to mumbai. Vengence people wanted that to be out and judiciary danced. But judiciary cannot stop people from having eye contact across the street. I stand on street and vishnu on the other side of the street we see each other and then depart. I now know how much eyes can share just with contact. Life has taught too many things for me. Nobody should have so much syllabus.

May lord vishnu bless fathers and sons better deal than this.

First day at Hyderabad.

The first day at hyderabad was exciting. The drive by car brought more happiness. I used to drive fiat during my first stint. It was the same road , but there is no railway gate which used to fall when i was going to office during the first time. Now with the time we have a flyover which goes over the railway lines. The road has changed so much. There used to be a mechanic on the way who used to repair car when needed, but now i could not even see that shop. There used to be a temple on the right side corner, even that i missed due to traffic not sure whether it is there or not. Shilparamam has changed a lot. I still remember walking into the hitech city to four-soft office asking for a favour to get somebody a job as management trainee. During that days it used to be the big building in that area. Now there are lot of new buildings. There used to be atha mess where i used to have food. I tried to find that, but could not find as new shops have come in that place.

The ultimate purpose of coming to hyderabad itself is defeated by the judge Ramana. I wish that his son also face the same music as I am facing and this is a bramhin curse to a corrupt judge.

May lord vishnu bless us all.

A very good article in Sakshi news paper

When i had gone through this article i found it the best.

http://epaper.sakshi.com/apnews/Hyderabad-Main_Edition/27122011/Details.aspx?id=1145667&boxid=26210872

packing and tears

Hello friends,

Packing a house is a real painful process. This is am going through in life second time on my own. First time i had to pack things to move from KPHB after my repeated appeals to get the life going failed. That day I cried like a kid looking at the things, for each pencil had its own place in the heart. With this pencil , i taught this java code. No body can believe, even looking at papers which are print outs with which i taught Java made me cry like anything. But as it is said your tears have no value for people who want to teach a lesson. Today when i packing here in mumbai my state is same. I waited here desperately for my son for more than 7 years. My friends sachin, sambha, preeti everybody knows how much i waited. I used to run to door like a mad fellow whenever calling bell used to be buzzed with a hope. It used to be paper boy or maid or watchman. With time hope died. I had come to conclusion that one side love never wins because it was only from my side. When leaving this place i think god wanted to send a lesson, may be that lesson was too harsh. He may want to open a new door of music which may be good. two more days will go in packing. God give me strength to pack these things. I am mentally dead with emotions surrounding each of the element. Dont give this pain to anybody god.

Hope lord vishnu bless everybody with love & peace.

Evadithe naakenti

Just now watched the raja sekhar starrer movie evadithe naakenti. Raghuvaran is a good actor. What an action.Few actors can match him.  This was one of his last movies before his final breath.  He was a divorcee but never allowed such an act to deviate him from his professional career. I am also proud of myself for almost 10 years of court fight, bravely fighting against the lies of dowry harassment , attempt to murder of lawyer etc. I still fought as a warrior and a proud warrior. In profession also stood by the principles i believed in. If .i can run the show for 2 -3 years i am mentally prepared to retire from the professional life too.It will help to keep the maintenace money to be available as I have to pay till 18 years of vishnu. Let us see how life goes on from here. A new challenge and new chapters opening up.

Shankdar dada - mbbs

Watched the movie again today on Gemini TV. Used to cry badly whenever there was shankar dada mbbs song. Because vishnu used to like that song very much. he always wanted that song to be played on the laptop. But with the heart accepting the recent facts, heart said how many times will you cry kumar. vengance has over powered love. I could not compete against the lawyer P. Raja gopal reddy. I am only a technical person but i cannot lie to the extent of a lawyer. No regrets. When I look at my slate i find it clean filled with values i believed in. I had fought till end as a great father. Winning and losing is part of life. But have u fought with guts till end before u closed the eyes is what counts and I see myself as a warrior if not a winner. Just like the hug which has the power, i had done good things in life. Anu, who was on the verge of suicide at kolkata today is married and settled at Ireland. Vaishnavi, who is dubai with srinivas who was mentally supported during tough times. Sachin with whom i created so many trading strategies, preeti who changed jobs for growth and today with prestigious company and then helping her buy car and house. The telugu tea team, the pavi bhaji wala whom sachin knows. The list goes on and on. I see myself a part of bigger society and moved up the chain. May lord vishnu bless me with wisdom and strength to serve people till i die.

Anna hazare and indian judiciary

Early in the morning 6am i went and had tea. Bought news paper before i get eenadu at home. Reading the newspaper on anna hazare really i felt bad. First does the judge have what you call aukad to comment on such a person. Second doubting the integrity of such a person saying it is satyagraha for you and nuisance for some other. Mr. Judge let me ask you through this portal to whom is it nuisance. It is no elections sabha with voice and noise pollution. Third saying do it from your home shows to what levels you had fallen down. This enforced my belief that Indian judiciary is the worst. There is no way judiciary cannot come out of it.

This system will not change. I was having a word with my friend Sachin, who also felt this chain cannot be broken. The police - judiciary nexus. The politician - Judiciary nexus.  Common man like teachers, bankers, small business man cannot find themselves any where. May this system change someday so that justice can be seen by people .

Disturbed Mind

As the day of leaving mumbai is coming, mind is disturbed. 8 years of life went out here.Came as a guy who never saw this city. Who has no body in this city. Made my impression in this city. After 8 years returning from this city. mind is so much disturbed i dont have words to say. certain dreams totally crushed. Great achievements also at the back. Life is like that. If you love something more than normal, god takes that away. Then u realize that there is no meaning in loving that to such extent as it was not yours. you came empty handed and will go empty handed. I watch kuntiputrudu movie song 'gummalu thommidhi gundemo chinnadhi, eeh dhari vachavu ra jeeva eeh dari poyevu ra' too good song. One more song of vikram okate jananam okate maranam too good.

Happy moments for brother

Finally brother also has decided to settle in life. Thats a good thing. Its a happy time in the house. The new year is making its presence felt. A time when house was down is now on the upbeat. Thinking of buying new dresses to make myself more presentable. How fast life changes. There were times when only negative things were part. How to protect myself and family. Today how can family be more happy. Thinking to visit the sudharshanam near yadgiri to visit all temples. Need to plan my calender for new year so that every quarter i am out to one place atleast. With karthik and akhi becoming big it becomes need to groom them into best in the fields i know. Holidays they will be with me and I will teach them the best of computers. They cannot get a better teacher in computers than their own mama. Kids are also very happy seeing me in jovial mood. Enjoying gemini comedy, gemini songs dancing with them. The whole world is happy when u are happy.
May lord vishnu bless everybody with happiness.

The positive change.

How things change fast in life is really intresting. The old fiat sienna is out  and new Hyundai Accent is in. My  association with fiat sienna was good. It served me well. I dont wanted to sell it, but still as fiat sienna has spares issue at Hyderabad , i had to opt between maruti esteem and hyundai accent. Hyundai accent had adjustable steering and that made difference. Any thing which cannot be adjusted is of no use in this modern world. Today started to fund one kid from the Thane orphanage. They asked what do you want this boy to be called. i said let him be called 'HRUDAY'. I will fund 'HRUDAY' as long as i can and i am sure i will get my share of love from that boy. The accent car will be my new year gift to my self. I am very excited of the same. How new people can get positive things going on this is the best example. I stopped living long back but now life has started looking rosy. New hopes and new aspirations have started to crop up and next 20 years looks like a newly laid road.

May vishnu bless us all.

blood versus rose

Today the demo at reliance went well. I should thank god for that. After coming from reliance i was checking my email. so found the email from ever vengensic person. It said that I should not see the kid at the school. This was not a shock to me, because i knew first itself that my lawyer was sold out. Her police father has used his influence on my lawyer who got sold out. Then her fiance lawyer does not wanted the kid to recollect his father. It is a not a shocker to anybody. It is well known that she sleeps with the lawyer and why will he expect the kid to see his bilogical father. As the movie of annamaya states that one needs to be above these bonds  and i had achieved that state long before. I fought for sometime, but now I dont need to fight or see any reason to fight. Love always should be peaceful, when it enter vengence it is better to withdraw as there is a very big world other than vengence. The only purpose of putting this blog is in this world if there are people who want blood, there are people who love roses too.

May lord vishnu bless us all.

Time to move forward.

Hi friends,

There is a particular lesson which i want to share with all of you. Whenever you enter into any divorce case situations, never fight for your wards. It is better you start a new life and move on. I did that mistake. Even if you fight and get few seconds/minutes/hours right it is of no use. Because ultimately a female is more poisonous than a snake.Even if u have a snake bite there are chances that you can survive. But a female bite there are no chances. Had a good discussion on surrogate kids today. May be this month end would see some decision from me where the kid will not have a mother(legal) to take away. Let us see how life unfolds.

May lord vishnu bless us all.

Does this govt think of common man

Its high time. This govt has stopped thinking of common man. Middle class is in a bad shape. they are unable to make their two ends meet. Time this govt should be pulled down. Enough is enough. Let a leader like modi take over.