Monday, December 26, 2011

packing and tears

Hello friends,

Packing a house is a real painful process. This is am going through in life second time on my own. First time i had to pack things to move from KPHB after my repeated appeals to get the life going failed. That day I cried like a kid looking at the things, for each pencil had its own place in the heart. With this pencil , i taught this java code. No body can believe, even looking at papers which are print outs with which i taught Java made me cry like anything. But as it is said your tears have no value for people who want to teach a lesson. Today when i packing here in mumbai my state is same. I waited here desperately for my son for more than 7 years. My friends sachin, sambha, preeti everybody knows how much i waited. I used to run to door like a mad fellow whenever calling bell used to be buzzed with a hope. It used to be paper boy or maid or watchman. With time hope died. I had come to conclusion that one side love never wins because it was only from my side. When leaving this place i think god wanted to send a lesson, may be that lesson was too harsh. He may want to open a new door of music which may be good. two more days will go in packing. God give me strength to pack these things. I am mentally dead with emotions surrounding each of the element. Dont give this pain to anybody god.

Hope lord vishnu bless everybody with love & peace.

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Evadithe naakenti

Just now watched the raja sekhar starrer movie evadithe naakenti. Raghuvaran is a good actor. What an action.Few actors can match him.  This was one of his last movies before his final breath.  He was a divorcee but never allowed such an act to deviate him from his professional career. I am also proud of myself for almost 10 years of court fight, bravely fighting against the lies of dowry harassment , attempt to murder of lawyer etc. I still fought as a warrior and a proud warrior. In profession also stood by the principles i believed in. If .i can run the show for 2 -3 years i am mentally prepared to retire from the professional life too.It will help to keep the maintenace money to be available as I have to pay till 18 years of vishnu. Let us see how life goes on from here. A new challenge and new chapters opening up.

Shankdar dada - mbbs

Watched the movie again today on Gemini TV. Used to cry badly whenever there was shankar dada mbbs song. Because vishnu used to like that song very much. he always wanted that song to be played on the laptop. But with the heart accepting the recent facts, heart said how many times will you cry kumar. vengance has over powered love. I could not compete against the lawyer P. Raja gopal reddy. I am only a technical person but i cannot lie to the extent of a lawyer. No regrets. When I look at my slate i find it clean filled with values i believed in. I had fought till end as a great father. Winning and losing is part of life. But have u fought with guts till end before u closed the eyes is what counts and I see myself as a warrior if not a winner. Just like the hug which has the power, i had done good things in life. Anu, who was on the verge of suicide at kolkata today is married and settled at Ireland. Vaishnavi, who is dubai with srinivas who was mentally supported during tough times. Sachin with whom i created so many trading strategies, preeti who changed jobs for growth and today with prestigious company and then helping her buy car and house. The telugu tea team, the pavi bhaji wala whom sachin knows. The list goes on and on. I see myself a part of bigger society and moved up the chain. May lord vishnu bless me with wisdom and strength to serve people till i die.

Anna hazare and indian judiciary

Early in the morning 6am i went and had tea. Bought news paper before i get eenadu at home. Reading the newspaper on anna hazare really i felt bad. First does the judge have what you call aukad to comment on such a person. Second doubting the integrity of such a person saying it is satyagraha for you and nuisance for some other. Mr. Judge let me ask you through this portal to whom is it nuisance. It is no elections sabha with voice and noise pollution. Third saying do it from your home shows to what levels you had fallen down. This enforced my belief that Indian judiciary is the worst. There is no way judiciary cannot come out of it.

This system will not change. I was having a word with my friend Sachin, who also felt this chain cannot be broken. The police - judiciary nexus. The politician - Judiciary nexus.  Common man like teachers, bankers, small business man cannot find themselves any where. May this system change someday so that justice can be seen by people .

Friday, December 23, 2011

Disturbed Mind

As the day of leaving mumbai is coming, mind is disturbed. 8 years of life went out here.Came as a guy who never saw this city. Who has no body in this city. Made my impression in this city. After 8 years returning from this city. mind is so much disturbed i dont have words to say. certain dreams totally crushed. Great achievements also at the back. Life is like that. If you love something more than normal, god takes that away. Then u realize that there is no meaning in loving that to such extent as it was not yours. you came empty handed and will go empty handed. I watch kuntiputrudu movie song 'gummalu thommidhi gundemo chinnadhi, eeh dhari vachavu ra jeeva eeh dari poyevu ra' too good song. One more song of vikram okate jananam okate maranam too good.

Happy moments for brother

Finally brother also has decided to settle in life. Thats a good thing. Its a happy time in the house. The new year is making its presence felt. A time when house was down is now on the upbeat. Thinking of buying new dresses to make myself more presentable. How fast life changes. There were times when only negative things were part. How to protect myself and family. Today how can family be more happy. Thinking to visit the sudharshanam near yadgiri to visit all temples. Need to plan my calender for new year so that every quarter i am out to one place atleast. With karthik and akhi becoming big it becomes need to groom them into best in the fields i know. Holidays they will be with me and I will teach them the best of computers. They cannot get a better teacher in computers than their own mama. Kids are also very happy seeing me in jovial mood. Enjoying gemini comedy, gemini songs dancing with them. The whole world is happy when u are happy.
May lord vishnu bless everybody with happiness.

Thursday, December 22, 2011

The positive change.

How things change fast in life is really intresting. The old fiat sienna is out  and new Hyundai Accent is in. My  association with fiat sienna was good. It served me well. I dont wanted to sell it, but still as fiat sienna has spares issue at Hyderabad , i had to opt between maruti esteem and hyundai accent. Hyundai accent had adjustable steering and that made difference. Any thing which cannot be adjusted is of no use in this modern world. Today started to fund one kid from the Thane orphanage. They asked what do you want this boy to be called. i said let him be called 'HRUDAY'. I will fund 'HRUDAY' as long as i can and i am sure i will get my share of love from that boy. The accent car will be my new year gift to my self. I am very excited of the same. How new people can get positive things going on this is the best example. I stopped living long back but now life has started looking rosy. New hopes and new aspirations have started to crop up and next 20 years looks like a newly laid road.

May vishnu bless us all.

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

blood versus rose

Today the demo at reliance went well. I should thank god for that. After coming from reliance i was checking my email. so found the email from ever vengensic person. It said that I should not see the kid at the school. This was not a shock to me, because i knew first itself that my lawyer was sold out. Her police father has used his influence on my lawyer who got sold out. Then her fiance lawyer does not wanted the kid to recollect his father. It is a not a shocker to anybody. It is well known that she sleeps with the lawyer and why will he expect the kid to see his bilogical father. As the movie of annamaya states that one needs to be above these bonds  and i had achieved that state long before. I fought for sometime, but now I dont need to fight or see any reason to fight. Love always should be peaceful, when it enter vengence it is better to withdraw as there is a very big world other than vengence. The only purpose of putting this blog is in this world if there are people who want blood, there are people who love roses too.

May lord vishnu bless us all.

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Time to move forward.

Hi friends,

There is a particular lesson which i want to share with all of you. Whenever you enter into any divorce case situations, never fight for your wards. It is better you start a new life and move on. I did that mistake. Even if you fight and get few seconds/minutes/hours right it is of no use. Because ultimately a female is more poisonous than a snake.Even if u have a snake bite there are chances that you can survive. But a female bite there are no chances. Had a good discussion on surrogate kids today. May be this month end would see some decision from me where the kid will not have a mother(legal) to take away. Let us see how life unfolds.

May lord vishnu bless us all.

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Does this govt think of common man

Its high time. This govt has stopped thinking of common man. Middle class is in a bad shape. they are unable to make their two ends meet. Time this govt should be pulled down. Enough is enough. Let a leader like modi take over.

New person into life.

As the new year starts life is going to take a new turn. A new person entering into life. I will be assured of good food. I can be assured of a cup of tea by time i come back from office. I can be assured of somebody who can speak pleasant by time i come back from office. Somebody who can give me medicine when i fall ill. I can think of travels to badrachalam, srisailam, simhachalam, etc. I am just looking for new year. Fought enough for vishnu now i will leave it to my lawyers to work on it.


Friday, December 9, 2011

sometime to vishnu

As the new year starts I will be moving into hyderabad. This gives me to give some time to vishnu. I can see him more often than now. May be when he is getting into the school bus or when he is getting out of school bus etc.Surely i can reach the school before he comes, so that i can see him coming out of school bus. I dont know to what extent this relation will go, but i have mentally prepared myself that it is going to be a one side love. I love vishnu , but i dont expect it to come from him. Mind is calm and peaceful now.

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